Friday, March 16, 2007
{ 4:17 PM }
today was a sad day. competition in the morning. look at the starting and u know wad happened.
early in the morning was filled with zest. wanting to win the competition and get the prize. when it was time to go in, they said cannot go in cos i wear sandals so i went all the way to pennisular to buy 2nd hand shoes.. maybe it was the badluck. cos shoes in chinese means wad.. go figure
later, we drafted the heroes. we were sandking, qop, warlock, thd and vs. opposition(zhong hua sec) was sven, chen, zeus, viper and earthshaker. the match was indeed a disappointing one. we started with hopes high but then slowly as the match progressed chai started feeding. it think it was partly my fault as i went other places to help out with the killing and i let btm lane farm alot. by the time we ganged it was too late. they chionged bkb and all our ultis were almost useless and they had alot of stuns. was it the heroes? or was i juz off form.. i tink i was off form most of the game. maybe it was the lack of sleep last nite. maybe i was too nervous. i don know. the hope was so high.. and yet. many ppl say the hope the higher, the greater the disappointment. it was true.
disappointed as it seemed.. it was still our first match. we shld not juz blame anyone as dota is a team game. however dota has to stop/lessen for me as it takes up to much time and i need to prepare o lvls. ian ang wishes to get into acjc and so do i.. maybe 1 day.. this very competition itself next year.. we will have a better team.. and better players. but then again.. acjc... will i even get there?
being the 2nd top class in sec 1 with ian didnt seem to bring me anywhere as i begin to slack and slack till where i am today. B band. however God has chose the path for me and.. somehow i enjoy being with my class. especially my new made frens... how has he ever managed to maintain by playing so much more than me. i do not know. even as i type this i still feel a sense of regret for now taking the opportunity to study hard. is dota gonna get me thru my life? definitely not. its the route u choose in life..
however. evenif u go to ITE doesnt mean u will die in singapore. u will still get a job somewhere like a macdonalds assistance. i myself do not want to go thru dat stage. i want abundant money and not slogging my life at the counter for 2 bucks a day for the rest of my life.
tis dream for ACJC still holds true for me as i want my acs education to last. every year i've been deluding my self telling me dat to study for o lvls 1 month b4 is possible.. it is not. i hope i am not too late. i myself have been lucky for being around with so many wonderful friends who are willing to spend their time with me teaching me stuff that i do not know. i greatly appreciate your help and i regret not studying hard.
i tink i end here.. enuff of life thinking u know..
the greater the hope, the greater the disappointment