Thursday, January 22, 2009
{ 9:34 PM }
im in for econs remedial
and chem as well.
i know i failed 2 subjects last year.
and us programs is needed.
then. math
my best subject.
the one i banked on
i think im gonna fail it as well this lecture test.
and.
if i have to attend it. it means all h2 got US program
and.
my chinese.
sure U.
means extra lessons on chinese.
and my physics aint that great either.
onli an S.
i realised i need time.
i know if i work hard now
i know i can make it
but
everyday i think i have time
after school.
its usually hanging out with the kiatwah etc
and usually ends up slacking
till dinner
reach home 7.30 le
then too tired
slack abit.
ZZZ
i juz realised i dint do so well for my chem test.
or maybe its mind tricks.
but
after that
i brooded over it for 2 hrs
then im back to normal
lol
juz like any other day
i lack zest.
i met mr ho today at jp
hes totally different in class and outside.
haha
like
hes damm friendly
lol
and
he seems to have high expectations on me.
i cant let him down
.
my dad came to me and said.
" u have to get to uni, if not the consequence u face urself"
"dun u have a backup plan for me?"
" nope. i dun have money send u overseas"
i feel lyke lolling but.
i dunno la.
so much pressure is building up.
i cant even do a simple test that the school throws at me.
im easily swayed by frens
its been lyke this since sec sch.
i usually cant reject them
if they wanna go out.
and more than often
im going out with alot of ppl
wasting precious time that could be spent studying.
frens are unlimited , my dad says.
frens come and go.
do u still keep in touch with ur nursery or pri sch best frens?
no.
best frens come and go.
but i'll still like to cherish them.
though
theres more in 2 years time.
look at the recession now.
its so bad.
people are getting pay cuts.
the min entry to go uni
to a decent course.
is no longer that easy.
As are so easily attainable.
and im juz
struggling to get a pass.
joke sia.