Monday, January 04, 2010
{ 6:16 PM }
i shall begin blogging again after so long.
cos im bored.. and im teaching tution while blogging. hahaha
thats how slack i am.
i bet no one would ever come here again after i convert it back to my old name
i like it. nickyyon.blogspot.com
a blog is meant to be private and i like it juz e way it is.
anyways.
its 2010. its time for a new resolution and im going to blog abt it. hahahaha
this year has been eventful yes.
ive been thru alot of ups and downs twists and turns.
firstly would be academic.
wts. A lvls omg it kills brain cells. like hella lot. hahaha.
its mugging and mugging and mindless mugging which might not even yield results
oh wells. at least its over now. i have the results to worry for now ): sigh
seriously the As doesnt even feel like As. its juz like any other normal exam. i guess the emotional shock from doing mocks and tests and the environment of the dirty rundown sch i attended dint give a A lv feel. not much like O lv.
2ndly would be my social status
i said b4 when i first entered jj and i would say it again. what seems to be does not necessarily what it will be.
smiling at ur face yet holding guns at the back . indeed. it seems like propaganda.
hahah
yes it is.
im glad of all the friends i made tis year. and the enemies ive gained.
and of course friends i have lost.
my defn of a friend is of course. to accept who u really are and what u are and walk down the path with u.
haha
many ppl sadly do not have this ability and prefer to walk down the path of deceit and treachery.
i thank all those who are my true friends for being there for me in every aspect of my life. some might weave in and out of th epic but nevertheless i thank u. especially my cca friends. hahaha..
i now know that the world is not a nice place to be in. defnitely not nice and i prefer it back in my sch where everytthing seems blunt . perhaps that would be my onli solace. im not sharp, i dun catch on things as fast as most ppl. especially when its directed to me haha.
3rdly.
my physical status zomg.
ive lost 8kg and gained back another 10.
omg
although total nett gain is 2 but wad e heck
my army..
although i pass napfa with silver
i heard tat when u go in. they look at u and take ur bmi. over e limit and off u go. LOL. do saikang.
worse than bp. when pes bp batch come in they throw u in. OH NO.
i dun wan
argh
4thly.
i tink my connection with God seems to be faltering
i dun wan tat
cos of As ive been neglecting him
and im scared im being a false phropet.
yesterday i din go church but instead went out with frens
i saw liyuan and when i ask her wheres she going.
she told me she was going church.
back then
i felt a stab of gulityness.
i know God delibrately put her there to remind me
to show me
to free my from my path and i shld desire not worldly things that perish but rather. pursue things that will not perish..
i feel so guilty.... i shld change. i really should. i must. infact.
love your enemies .
the greatest commandment is to love.
ive yet to learn that.
i hope that i will achieve that aspect.